As I wrote a below Journal, I could have an opportunity to speak English with customer at the sandwich store. Today one lady makes me realize it again. I'm so bad at the pronunciation!!
I told her, "What size do you want, Large or Regular? ", but she was like "???. Excuse me, what?". I repeated the same phrase three times, thanks god, finally she could understand what I wanted to say. Later I found out that she might get confused about [L] and [R] I pronounced. I knew it already, though, I was disappointed. Hmm, I thought my pronunciation would be better than when I got here U.S.... Yes, in fact, I could improve it somewhat through past one year, but still I bog down with how to pronounce correctly. Just keep up practice! (usually I imitate what speakers of the radio say , sometime shout, and sing in the car. Funny, huh? This is the my best way to practice speaking well now, just I beilieve.)
Writing below now is just muttering from my mind. I think not only I get trouble of speaking and listening English, but also most of Japanese who study English have same problem. From my experience, I've had a very hard time dealing with listening. Even now. Looking back when I came here U.S, I couldn't understand 70% of what people here were talking about. Then, I also couldn't speak normally. It's a fact that I was afraid to communicate with anyone. Why?, because I didn't get the content of conversations even if someone like my friends willingly try to talk with me. To make matter worse, I usually pretended to understand it and behaved in a seemingly natural way. I always wondered why people from foreign country except Japanese could communicate with American normally. Also they seemed like not to have serious problems about ability of listening English. Now it makes sense to me. All problems that Japanese has at listening is from correct pronounciation. If you cannot pronounce a word correctly, you may not understand this word from listening. There are many differences of pronunciation between English and Japanese.
To be continued later...